I'm not even really sure I have a point to make in this blog... just FYI before you start reading and wonder what in the world is going on in my head :) and if anyone even reads this, my apologies for not posting in ages... I don't like when people stop posting... ha!
So today was absolutely incredible...
1) It was cheesecake Sunday. While I couldn't eat the cheesecake at church (I'm 2 1/2 months into 6 months with NO sweets!) I was reminded once again why I love Crossings so much. Mark ended the Come to the Table talks that we were in this morning and I was blown away by Jesus and the Kingdom and this Luke 14 lifestyle we have forgotten. I was completely broken by the fact that everyone is not always welcome at my table (you should listen to the podcasts of the past 4 weeks!). Mark also laid out the vision of Crossings for the next year. It was beautiful and so aligned with the Gospel. He ended the morning reminding us of the necessity to taste and see the Lord. Check out his blog on February 6th to see the story of why Eli's Cheesecake sends down tons of free cheesecake every year on Crossings birthday... http://www.standingonthedesk.blogspot.com/
2) I had a mini retreat today with the wonderful girls in my Bible study. We all read The Shack over Christmas break and spent the day discussing the book and what God taught us through it. Though we didn't agree with everything the author wrote, it was clear that God broke each of our hearts through it. It was a real, raw, and honest time where each of us shared what God was doing in our lives... not the answers we want others to hear, but the messy stuff that is truth. It was beautiful.
3) I have been loving the lyrics of the zao water cd. It's a cd recorded to raise money to build wells in Africa. All of the songs are about water... THE Living Water! It's awesome... and has been on repeat this whole weekend!
4) My dad got facebook last night (and he is probably reading this now since he can find my blog :) ). While that may seem random, it was a beautiful moment when I read his profile. God has been totally turning his world upside down and I am completely overwhelmed by our God who has the power to transform hearts... and that's what my dad's status testifies to. And his profile shows that his life is completely committed to the Lord! I LOVE IT!! And I cannot get over it! Our God is insane!
5) "Let’s use the example of friendship and how removing the element of life from a noun can drastically alter a relationship. If you and I are friends, there is an expectancy that exists within our relationship. When we see each other or are apart, there is expectancy of being together, or laughing and talking. That expectancy has no concrete definition; it is alive and dynamic and everything that emerges from our being together is a unique gift shared by no one else. But what happens if I change that “expectancy” to an “expectation”—spoken or unspoken? Suddenly, law has entered into our relationship. You are now expected to perform in a way that meets my expectations. Our living friendship rapidly deteriorates into a dead thing with rules and requirements. It is no longer about you and me, but about what friends are supposed to do, or the responsibilities of a good friend."
I was reminded today to live in expectancy and without expectations... in my relationship with the Lord, in my relationships with others, in regards to my future, and every other part of my life.
So here's to some random thoughts after a month of no blogging :)
